Monday, December 29, 2008


ya ya..The years do seem to go by faster and faster. Thing is, they DO because you can't believe that THAT much shit actually happened in just one year. When you were a kid/pre teen/teen the things that happened, the excitement, the change, the depression in your life happened but over three years instead of 6 months.

Twenty o8 was an epic year of long term relationships coming to an end. Some of which I cried about more then the people involved did.
For me, I broke up, got back together, broke up, got back together, broke up, got back together. Crushed and was crushed by one man.
I had quite a bit of short term "friendships" too

I may hate America as a whole but I don't hate all American’s and I don't hate some of their beautiful cities and country side. Anyway…they finally stood up for change this year. Even if most of them don't understand what it's really going to take people to do to ACTUALLY change. But I say, a want for change is at least a start.
Black prez… that's pretty awesome. OH and there's the little issue of Wall Street and them being on the verge of another depression. Ps. did I mention we aren’t doing so hot either?

John McCain said “my friends” 24 times during the town hall debate. Which if you were playing the drinking game would have really fucked you up.

California made gay marriage illegal again. Fucking ridiculous.

Many friends moved away this year. Some came back long enough for me to feel like they never left, only to leave again.
I bonded more with some people, grew apart from many

On the hill's Spencer and Heidi got married..or did they?
On young and the restless Catharine Chancler died and Victor Newman died….or did they?

I went to two other countries.
I fell in love with one.

OJ Simpson went to jail! 8 years after he was supposed too. For a totally different thing!
The Canadian dollar was at it's highest since a long ass time
Metro Vancouver had its most snow since a long ass time ago

My dearest friend became an aunt
My longest friend had sex with twins at the same time.

I had 4 jobs this year!

I went through 5 roommates. I’m not a bad roommate honestly…it was all for different reasons. I am happy with the end results.

I inherited 6 cameras. As a result I decided to get back into photography. It’s been a slow start, but the love is still there and I feel creative again. I also started this blog. Then I deleted it. Then I started it again.

Pirates came back with a vengeance!

This time it was not Johnny Dep in pirates of the Caribbean 72 but real pirates…Somalian pirates.
“Taking advantage of a country without a stable government, the pirates attacked more than 90 vessels this year, seizing almost 40, and raked in some US$30mil (RM95mil) in ransom.”

I had Christmas at my house this year. My sister came to visit which meant I was to spend the holidays with family for the first time in over 7 years. So I got a tree, bought presents (went broke) and I decided to make a huge Christmas dinner, turkey and the works.
My sister only ate mashed potatoes. But I love her anyway and at least we refreshed ourselves on Walt Disney and Star Trek. Watching 4 movies of each.

I hope to spend new years with Jake, Jenni and Jeff, drinking wine and loving my life because I’m pretty lucky, and it’s been pretty good so far.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

i was attacked by a todler...

...don't laugh, it was pretty scary. i wanted to educate myself so this did not happen again and this is what i found:

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

ps..i mean i'm pretty sure i look just like

secret not so secret obesssion with...


this video gives me a femboner:

blog jamming during the winter nights

It's no secret to most of my loved ones that I'm not always a pleasant person to be around during the long winter months. you could say I'm a bit of a depressed Debbi, a sad sally, a miserable Monah, a mopey Mindy etc etc. but due to a couple of things I've decided to do this year, I'm feeling not too shabby. I'm still as much of a hermit as always but this time...I'm fucking loving it. there's nothing I'd rather do lately then to come home, drink wine, blog a bit, order curry, snuggle with my amazing cat and watch old movies. I've been on a Walter Matthau train lately and i don't think i want to get off anytime soon. my house is a comfy winter cabin with cable and a pile of movies begging to be watched. it's like taking a personal day for months. as Jake and Erin would say "a personal month" but more like a personal SEASON.
i don't go out too much and therefore i don't see too many people. the best part is, i don't feel bad about it AT ALL.
anyway here's my motivation for staying home: (you tell me you wouldn't do the same)

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Long live something

Serina Nell. Friend shout out# 6
I have not kept in touch with many people from my childhood. I used to feel bad about it but the more i've grown and the more wonderful people i meet as the years go by, i don't.

You're personality changes, so who you at age 7 is obviously nowhere near who you are at 24. Most of the time you're lucky to have a friend that changes with you throughout the school years let alone the rest of your life following. I did not like a lot of kids my age growing up and i don't think they even knew who i was and i certainly don't regret moving away from all of them.

In grade 8 i met one girl who's grown with me since then. No one before then and no one really after (Mind you my last 2 years living in kelowna were also spent getting to know some pretty great people)

I just want to say i'm glad she's the one person i kept in touch with from those days. She's taught me to be strong, not to think to hard about bullshit, what other people think and to live life the way i WANT to live it. which is the way everyone should live really.

She's inspired me and showed's ok to be crazy.

i don't see her often but she's still close to my heart. These days i'd sum her up in one word: twins!!

Long live great friendships that came to you when you needed it the matter how late in the game.

and long live the ones that stick around and the ones you want to stick around for.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

wall street tombstones! jesus

by Lizzie Widdicombe November 10, 2008

Of all the sad Wall Street scenes—Lehman employees shuffling out of their offices in shorts, “reduction in force” victims commiserating over drinks on Stone Street—one of the saddest might be the headquarters of Icon Recognition, a company that makes deal toys, the desktop trophies (sometimes called “deal gifts” or “tombstones”) collected by a lot of finance types to commemorate deals. On an afternoon not long ago, a conference room there had a day-after-Christmas feeling: boxes everywhere, rows of lonely Lucite toys (a cube with 3-D shoes etched inside, a fake bottle of suntan lotion).* “This is definitely a tough time,” Stephen Sokoler, the president of the company, said. He’d been up early working the phones: “You call and ask, ‘Is there anyone who’s announced a deal recently or closed a deal? Anyone you’ve heard of?’ ” He added, “It feels like we’re a ship in the middle of a storm. Not only are you in the storm but there’s no visibility as to whether the storm’s gonna clear.”
Sokoler, who is twenty-nine, came to the company in 2002, and he recalled, with some wistfulness, the go-go days of the business, when, for example, he made a faux emerald-and-ruby crown to celebrate a deal for Merrill Lynch, and J. P. Morgan ordered up a batch of ten-by-fifteen-inch Lucite blocks with dinosaur heads inside (three hundred dollars each)—a “Jurassic Park” reference—to celebrate a deal involving Universal. “That was just a monstrous piece,” Sokoler said.
The most recent era of toys—the one that just ended—had been exuberant, too: a gold-plated replica of the Mandalay Bay Hotel, in Las Vegas, commissioned by Merrill Lynch; a Lucite banana split, commemorating Sun Capital Partners’ acquisition of Friendly’s; a snow globe made for Northoil (“Inside the snow globe we have placed a pewter casting of an oil rig,” the ad material says). Sokoler pointed to a catalogue picture of a little banjo, commemorating a deal that Merrill did for G.E. called Project Bluegrass. “Isn’t that cool?” he said. “You can actually play it.”
He was joined by Kathryn Kerns, a salesperson, who had just come back from a trip to the cubicles at Goldman Sachs. (Deal toys are usually commissioned by junior analysts.) It was not long after the news broke that Goldman might lay off ten per cent of its staff, but the scene, Kerns reported, had been eerily calm. “I get the impression that people are either very busy now or they’re getting a lot more downtime,” she said. Goldman recently sent an e-mail to employees announcing that they would have to start paying for their own deal toys, but Sokoler thinks that such mandates will eventually be relaxed. “Every once in a while, you see rules like that,” he said. Somehow, people have continued to fill their windowsills with souvenir footballs, detachable trucks, and bobblehead C.E.O.s mounted on Lucite pedestals.

This spring came what Kern called “the tiny-globe craze.” Sokoler rolled his eyes. “Oh, don’t start with that,” he said. “You know those things you see in Sharper Image, where there’s a base and a little globe just floats over it?” (They work by means of magnets.) Somebody at Merrill decided to order a hundred of them to celebrate an M. & A. deal, and all of a sudden everybody had to have one. “It was a real pain in the ass,” Sokoler said. “People were calling my cell phone in the middle of the night, saying, ‘It’s not floating!’ And you’d have to, like, walk them through it. You’d say, ‘Yes, it is floating—you just have to hold it in the right place.’ ”
There will always be deal toys of some kind, Sokoler predicted (Icon Recognition is already coming up with a pitch to commemorate Bank of America’s acquisition of Merrill), but, lately, more traditional designs have resurfaced—the simple tombstone, for example, with the name of the lead firm on the left. “It’s more in keeping with the mood,” Kerns said. Sokoler wandered over to a miniature statue of the god Apollo, commissioned to celebrate a private-equity deal for Apollo Capital. Apollo was bare-chested, and his foot was planted on the torso of a writhing grizzly bear, which he seemed about to shoot in the face with a tiny bow and arrow. “This was sketched by a banker,” Sokoler said—an analyst at J. P. Morgan. Sokoler pointed out Apollo’s rippling muscles, and the bear’s ears and teeth. “To be honest, I don’t think any other company could make this,” he said. He shrugged. “I think the bear won.” ♦

Sunday, November 23, 2008

amanda sure can capture an image

i'm saving my friend shout out to amanda for when i have the right image of her and the perfect thing to say. so we'll call this a pre-shout out to her and also to the subjects.

i was snooping through amanda's blog and then her flicker thingy and i found this. couldn't have possibly taken a better picture to sum tara and johnny up then this.

i love you and i love these guys!!!!!!

my landlords...

...are actors. i am listening to muffled sounds of what sounds like a retard yelling and repeating herself.
i LOOVE when they get parts and start practicing their lines.

uncle duffy

friend shout out # 4

i'm glad you're back for a while now buddy! can you say tequila in the afternoon?
cause i can.

oh movies

this is my favourite of all time... ps.

Friday, November 21, 2008

a brilliant talent

the only piece of art i've ever bought that wasn't from a thrift store and under 10$ was by this guy. i met his brother's while in mexico and saw his stuff in a local cantina they were working at. he is amazing and i recomend you check him out!

blood meridian


no more men

apparently the world has run out of decent looking men.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

dear new york: i love you.

new york is amazing. all the senses get a dose of awesome. it showed me how small vancouver is and reminded me that there's a lot more people in this world i'd like to meet and a hell of a lot more things i'd like to also reminded me of all the wonderful people vancouver has lost to new york and how much i miss them.


thank you jenni and jeff for being such wonderful host's and putting up with me for so many days. you have always made me feel loved and you always make me laugh. i miss you both so much.

speaking of marcie... (friend shout out#3)

...there are no words to describe how much this women means to me. she is my rock.


this is fucking hilarious. louis ck is wonderful. thanks for the ticket marcie, i had so much fun and i laughed..a guess a little.


anyone lived in a pretty how town by E. E. Cummings
anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.

Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain

Monday, November 17, 2008

Total Babe

I think i have to go kill myself now...Fuck!

Chad VanGaalan you blow my fucking mind into mini little pieces!!!

Chad VanGaalen - Molten Light

thank you Andre for showing this to me. This animation and song is spine chilling.

My Favourite illustrator!

(b. 1966)Emigrated from South Africa (1977) to Vancouver, Canada. Joyce Williams began selling his original etchings when he was 16 years old. The National Library of Canada has maintained an archive of his work since 1986. His Book WEE FOLK, won the Juror's Choice Award at the Seattle Book Fair. He illustrated, at their invitation, Andrew Lang's BLUE FAIRY BOOK for the Folio Society in London in 2002, followed by Kenneth Grahame's WIND IN THE WILLOWS in 2005. Charles' own books (25) are designed, written and illustrated by himself, and he oversees every step of their publication for his own company, The Fairy Press.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Friend shout out #2 also pictures i have taken of her that i like

Eve-Valerie Nathalie Georgette Bechade Has been one of my best friends for a very long time. We have been through soo much together it's unexplainable. I moved to Vancouver here with her and she was my first roomate. Both being raised in messy and chaotic environments, we kept that house with pride and she taught me more about myself then i even knew. We both will do just about anything if it's free and we love mushrooms, blades, jd, wine and dressing up and taking pictures.
when she calls, she makes my day.